THE FRAUD BELIEVER

THE FRAUD BELIEVER

Just quite recently, I fell into sins I believed were beneath me, sins I thought I had overcome. It wasn’t pride that made me think they were beneath me, but the confidence that I had indeed conquered them.

One of these sins, I thought I had been victorious over for years. But before this recent fall, I recall God warning me about my past failures. He reminded me that, while I may have been living above the sin, I had not been truly remorseful or repentant. He even presented me with a list of occasions when I had fallen into this sin without genuine repentance. I should have taken those warnings far more seriously and recognized that it was a spiritual battle.

Unfortunately, the most I did was reach out to those I had hurt and apologize, thinking that was what God wanted from me. But in reality, it was ignorance on my part, I failed to address the root cause.

Fast forward to now: I didn’t intentionally commit this sin again. It began with something seemingly harmless, something I didn’t own up to, which suddenly escalated into lies and attempts to cover up my actions. Then came the accuser of the brethren (Revelation 12:10). The first thing he called me was “FRAUD.” He went on to remind me how I go around preaching, teaching the Word of God, and praying for others, yet, deep down, I was just masking my sinful self. “FRAUD,” he repeated.

I felt a deep sense of shame. For days, I struggled with the weight of being a fraud. I couldn’t pray or study the Word of God because I felt unworthy. I mean, I’m a fraud, what’s the point?

While I was drowning in self-pity and guilt, “The Greatest Friend” and “The Sweetest Solace” reminded me that the devil is an accuser. Even though he is the father of lies, he doesn’t always accuse falsely. Instead, he manipulates us into sin and then uses that same sin to accuse us.

The Holy Spirit charged me: “Instead of lying in your sin, confess and repent.” He brought to mind Revelation 12:11:
“And they have conquered him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony.”

He urged me to write about what I felt, the feeling of being a fraud. But I procrastinated, not because I’m stubborn, but because I hesitated (yes, I know...smh). He continued to remind me to write about it until I again fell into another sin. This time, the accuser wasted no time returning with the same accusations.

This time, however, I didn’t feel hurt by what he said. Instead, I was broken by the sheer stupidity and arrogance that led me to fall again. I felt empty, ashamed of how easily I had fallen into his trap.

But thank God for His grace! His mercy said No! Sin would not take control of me.

The Holy Spirit didn’t just correct me, He schooled me. He revealed the root of my sin and, once again, charged me to write about this “FRAUD” feeling that so many believers experience.

Keynote: Repent and Confess

Here’s the truth: You cannot be accused of something you’ve already admitted. Once you confess it, it’s no longer an accusation—it’s a testimony. So, make it a point to own your sins. Confess and repent.

Remember:
“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9).

Don’t let the accuser hold you in bondage. Confess, repent, and walk in the freedom Christ has given you.

LYLY🌷